Of Joy & Unseen Happiness

I am still confused with the emotions I am feeling.
Sure!
I'm HAPPY..
But what is happiness?
Is it a state of mind...
a state of being...
of somthing material..
of something physical...
of something...? Basta ano ?

I wear this mask.
I play this role.
I feel this person.
That is not me...

And Everyday.. it keeps on tormenting me.
That by the time sun sets..
I couldn't remove this mask any more...
I couldn't recognize the face I see in the mirror.

I am what they want to see...
I wear the mask of Joy..
But within me....
I long for something....

Within grasp but couldn't touch..
within sight but couldn't see..
an invisible thing.
my unseen happiness.