Of Love and the one that got away
They always say that I'm the type of person who's always in love.
Yep! 3 times a day, 5 times a week.
They could see hearts in my eyes and feel the butterflies in my stomach.
I act crazy, talk lousy and laugh "wildly".
But other than that, they could prove nothing.
In reality, I could never really tell if I have really been "romantically" in love. You see, most often than not, I play the role of the third wheel.
The type of person who fills the crowd and mingles with couples.
The best friend.
The tropa.
The Ate.
The blockmate.
The classmate.
The Old friend.
An acquaintance.
Isang MALAKING HADLANG.
It's more like a "bad habit" that you get used to. Trying to analyze and criticize all the girls or guys your tropa is currently "dating" or "pinopormahan". I look at the relationship at the outside. From the "norms'" perspective… or so I believe. (Yeah right... excuses... hehehe)
During my college years, I got to know a lot of people. The craziest became my very best friends; some became my "constant correspondent". Being the "chismosa" that I am, I get to know them more, deeper, and even on the personal level.
I don't really know if I would consider myself fortunate to have witnessed all the happiness, heartaches and break ups of these wonderful people. But I did learn... somehow...
The first story was of my "blockmate-since-highschool" (sorry tol..blog ko toh.. hehehe.. gantihan nalang). At first I really couldn't believe that he was in a relationship that time. He's such a funny guy, adorable and a good Christian. But I couldn't imagine him as a "boyfriend material". During those times, he tried so hard to make the relationship work. Of course it was hard, it was a long distance relationship and they were just freshmen. Duh! Eventually, the relationship ended. I couldn't really relate to him, as much as I try to put things in a theoretical manner. Hmmm... The only great thing I could remember about that relationship was... I get to listen to Mandy Moore's "I wanna be with you" for more that 1 hr. (back to back. both side A and B) hehehehe...
Next was my best friend. She introduced him to me one summer afternoon. He was kind, smart and "rich". It started with small gimmicks, movies, dinner out, hang out sa kios. I liked him for her. I think they were a good pair. They complement each other. They were both first timers in love. Everything was perfect. He was preparing for his thesis; she was trying to be understanding. She wanted to talk about many things, get to know him better. He was too busy. She understood. But when timing strikes and both have different perception on each positions, communication lines were blocked. They had to let go. Instead of holding on to something that could have been...
My "twin sister's" story was quite different. She had a whirl wind romance. A kind that starts to bloom in a spontaneous kind of manner. She introduced him to me, way back when we were sophomores. At first I couldn't recognize a "friendly date" with a "romantic date". So, most of the time I butt in... He never argued. That's why I liked him. He was a gentleman. Of course I understand that they have the right to be with each other. So I let them, most of the time they were happy and crazy. On this case, you'd asked if it was the guy's fault. hehehe.. Maybe... maybe not... I don't blame them... but WORDS could be so powerful even if you mean no harm. And at this case, what was said... is done...
This last one, I specially admire when it comes to relationships. He's the silent type of person. (Kaya naman ang hirap pilitin magkwento...)The one who moves in silence, more on actions less in words... You could ask him anything about technical stuff and he'd answer in full details. But we never get to talk a lot about relationships and mushy stuff. Of course, I understand he's a guy. (Yeah, right...) I just watch his relationship with his girlfriend bloom into something I would define as "perfect". I even envy them, for finding each other. While most of us, try so hard as to find or figure out if there's someone there for us. He was there with her. And you could see that they "love" each other. Hmmm... You might ask? So what's the point of sharing this particular story...? The point is they broke up... and for what reasons? Only they would know. ( I wouldn’t know, ayaw nga mag kwento e…) Maybe, they fell out of love… Or Got so used to being with each other... Just buying some time to be alone… To know how it feels to be single again. To feel what was missing in such a perfect relationship.
Well, hindi ko din alam kung pano ko sasabihin e… This is just my concept in life. Pero I believe people tend to make a big deal out of this so called feeling… When you come to think about it... Love is really overrated… Hindi ako nagpapaka bitter, mind you…I just feel sad to know that even the "almost" perfect relationships don’t last. I’m a romantic myself. In as much as I wanted each and every relationships to last. Hindi ka naman mag go grow. Kung patuloy kang mabubuhay sa nakaraan. Maybe learn for a while, and if really someday you bump into that person again. And still have that tingling feeling. Who knows di ba? Timing is realy a big factor.
Pero as of now, these things tend to make me wonder if I’ll ever find that one… Still hopeful but with a little doubt.
Of course...
I love my family.
I love my work.
I love my life.
Does that count?
Nah... Guess not.
======================================
I would never know what if feels to be in such a position, because I choose to. To me, the one that got away might not be a person, but the opportunity to love and be loved in return. :D
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Sadly ito lang ang kinaya ng powers ko...
Marami nanamang work e...
Panget tuloy.. hehehe.. enjoy reading!
Yep! 3 times a day, 5 times a week.
They could see hearts in my eyes and feel the butterflies in my stomach.
I act crazy, talk lousy and laugh "wildly".
But other than that, they could prove nothing.
In reality, I could never really tell if I have really been "romantically" in love. You see, most often than not, I play the role of the third wheel.
The type of person who fills the crowd and mingles with couples.
The best friend.
The tropa.
The Ate.
The blockmate.
The classmate.
The Old friend.
An acquaintance.
Isang MALAKING HADLANG.
It's more like a "bad habit" that you get used to. Trying to analyze and criticize all the girls or guys your tropa is currently "dating" or "pinopormahan". I look at the relationship at the outside. From the "norms'" perspective… or so I believe. (Yeah right... excuses... hehehe)
During my college years, I got to know a lot of people. The craziest became my very best friends; some became my "constant correspondent". Being the "chismosa" that I am, I get to know them more, deeper, and even on the personal level.
I don't really know if I would consider myself fortunate to have witnessed all the happiness, heartaches and break ups of these wonderful people. But I did learn... somehow...
The first story was of my "blockmate-since-highschool" (sorry tol..blog ko toh.. hehehe.. gantihan nalang). At first I really couldn't believe that he was in a relationship that time. He's such a funny guy, adorable and a good Christian. But I couldn't imagine him as a "boyfriend material". During those times, he tried so hard to make the relationship work. Of course it was hard, it was a long distance relationship and they were just freshmen. Duh! Eventually, the relationship ended. I couldn't really relate to him, as much as I try to put things in a theoretical manner. Hmmm... The only great thing I could remember about that relationship was... I get to listen to Mandy Moore's "I wanna be with you" for more that 1 hr. (back to back. both side A and B) hehehehe...
Next was my best friend. She introduced him to me one summer afternoon. He was kind, smart and "rich". It started with small gimmicks, movies, dinner out, hang out sa kios. I liked him for her. I think they were a good pair. They complement each other. They were both first timers in love. Everything was perfect. He was preparing for his thesis; she was trying to be understanding. She wanted to talk about many things, get to know him better. He was too busy. She understood. But when timing strikes and both have different perception on each positions, communication lines were blocked. They had to let go. Instead of holding on to something that could have been...
My "twin sister's" story was quite different. She had a whirl wind romance. A kind that starts to bloom in a spontaneous kind of manner. She introduced him to me, way back when we were sophomores. At first I couldn't recognize a "friendly date" with a "romantic date". So, most of the time I butt in... He never argued. That's why I liked him. He was a gentleman. Of course I understand that they have the right to be with each other. So I let them, most of the time they were happy and crazy. On this case, you'd asked if it was the guy's fault. hehehe.. Maybe... maybe not... I don't blame them... but WORDS could be so powerful even if you mean no harm. And at this case, what was said... is done...
This last one, I specially admire when it comes to relationships. He's the silent type of person. (Kaya naman ang hirap pilitin magkwento...)The one who moves in silence, more on actions less in words... You could ask him anything about technical stuff and he'd answer in full details. But we never get to talk a lot about relationships and mushy stuff. Of course, I understand he's a guy. (Yeah, right...) I just watch his relationship with his girlfriend bloom into something I would define as "perfect". I even envy them, for finding each other. While most of us, try so hard as to find or figure out if there's someone there for us. He was there with her. And you could see that they "love" each other. Hmmm... You might ask? So what's the point of sharing this particular story...? The point is they broke up... and for what reasons? Only they would know. ( I wouldn’t know, ayaw nga mag kwento e…) Maybe, they fell out of love… Or Got so used to being with each other... Just buying some time to be alone… To know how it feels to be single again. To feel what was missing in such a perfect relationship.
Well, hindi ko din alam kung pano ko sasabihin e… This is just my concept in life. Pero I believe people tend to make a big deal out of this so called feeling… When you come to think about it... Love is really overrated… Hindi ako nagpapaka bitter, mind you…I just feel sad to know that even the "almost" perfect relationships don’t last. I’m a romantic myself. In as much as I wanted each and every relationships to last. Hindi ka naman mag go grow. Kung patuloy kang mabubuhay sa nakaraan. Maybe learn for a while, and if really someday you bump into that person again. And still have that tingling feeling. Who knows di ba? Timing is realy a big factor.
Pero as of now, these things tend to make me wonder if I’ll ever find that one… Still hopeful but with a little doubt.
Of course...
I love my family.
I love my work.
I love my life.
Does that count?
Nah... Guess not.
======================================
I would never know what if feels to be in such a position, because I choose to. To me, the one that got away might not be a person, but the opportunity to love and be loved in return. :D
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Sadly ito lang ang kinaya ng powers ko...
Marami nanamang work e...
Panget tuloy.. hehehe.. enjoy reading!
Sinulat ni Cookie noong 1/25/2005 02:15:00 PM
1 Mga Nagbasa Ng sInulat
hi wee! yup, love is really overrated. but don't believe everything you hear or see in movies, love is much more than that. Siguro pag nainlove ka, tatahimik ka. hehehe. just don't analyze things, minsan talaga nd na inaalyze yung mga ganyang bagay, sasakit lang ulo mo. sabihin na lang nating late bloomer ka, or maybe ayaw mong ilet go ang sarili mo. love is just around the corner.pag wala pa rin, daanin mo na sa kulam! hehehe.
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