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Longest Day of My Life ... so far

TiRed

I feel so tired.
This is the longest day of my life.
Maybe because it started at around 12midnight!
Yep, I was still reviewing for the Board Exam till 1am in the morning.

But by the time I start to have this fuzzy dream,
I heard HALE sang to me - The day you said goodnight.
So, its was already 3am.
I guessed that my mom couldn't sleep too.
She was overly excited about her trip to Beijing.
While I was still drowzzzzyy..
The cool breeze of the air condition didn't help much in keeping me on my feet.

Now! I have proven that the gravitational pull of the bed is greater that that of the sun. hahaha...
Or whatever!
Basta, I needed to sleep for another 30 minutes.

So by 330am, pops woke me up.
Sabi nya, Sa car nalang ako matulog..
Duh! As if makakaya ko un..

Anyway, we departed at around 420am.
I haven't got the time to eat my breakfast.
Kaya nag coffee muna ako sa may gas station.

Pero, sa sobrang antok ko.
Nakalimutan ko inumin ang kape ko.
hahaha.. bangag..




We arrived at LUCENA CITY around 6am.
Masyado pang maaga kaya we decided to eat breakfast at the bus terminal.
I wanted to appreciate the beauty of QUEZON.
Especially ngayon! Dahil FIESTA sa kanila.

But after breakfast, I had to go back to the place.
Hindi na talaga kaya ng utak ko!
Hindi na ako nagbasa.
Ayaw ko din ma pressure.



Pero, I had to admit that I could have done better.
Kaso andito na e..

We waited till 8am.
Kala ko 7 ang exam.
Grabeh talaga o..

Antok na antok na ako!
Muntik na akong makatulog before the exam.

I wanted to hurry and finished the exam.
Grabeh! Naghahalo na lahat ng binasa ko.

Finished the multiple choice and true or false question smoothly.
Pag dating ng enumeration! Chacheng! Bokla ako!
ANo ba namang malay ko sa Tax declaration at BIR.
Sabi ko na nga ba.. Dapat nakinig ako dun sa taga-BIR nung nag lecture siya.
Kasi nakakainis kasing isipin na may interest ka na, may tax ka pa plus may surcharge ka pa.. Hahaha.. Di ko nga sure kung may tax pa ung surcharge! Exaj noh!!!!

Then, comes the problem solving!
Eto na talaga!
Hindi ko alam kung ako lang o talagang hindi maintindihan ang gustong itanong ng taga DTI.

Any way, sa solution part! Ginawa ko essay!
Hahahaha...
Kasi ang hirap baka di nila maintindihan kung saan mo nakuha ung sagot mo. Nilagay ko ung mga assumptions ang given. Plus the theories that I used to compute. So ginawa kong essay..;)

Within the span of 2hrs 30mins. I finished the 4hr exam.
I'm not proud!
I'm just running out of time.

After the exam, I literally ran out of the school and drag my dad out of LUCENA.

I wanted to see the view.
Madaming fiesta ngayon!
Bad trip nga lang dahil ang babagal ng mga sasakyan.
I have to be at Malate by 2pm.

Hindi ko alam kung anong ginawa ng dad ko.
Pinalipad nya yata ang kotse e.. :D
We arrived at Total Gas Station by 1pm
We ate lunch and off we go again.

At Exactly, 2pm we were already in PETRON gas station.
One more turn, and I was in front of Dy Building.
hahaha.. Galing ni papa mag drive.
Kasabay ko lang dumating si dhette! ;)

Donnie, Jode and Ann were also there.
Bangag na akao kaya kung ano ano ang dinadaldal ko.

I finished the recpompilation before 3pm.
Then, I was of to ALABANG tobuy my sister a dictionary.
Ang haba ng pila!
Lekat! Nalimutan kong pasukan na naman!
At lahat sila gustong bumili ng bago.
It was not enough, na mahaba ang pila sa ATM.
Ang haba din ng pila sa bayaran.

Waaahhh!!!
Tumunog pa ako pag labas ko..
What a day indeed!

By the time, I arrived sa bahay.
Diretso na ako tulog!
Hindi nanaman ako naka pag simba.

Grabeh!Isang pangarap nalang ba ang pag daan sa simbahan para sa akin. Sobrang wala na akong oras..( I need time to reflect )

I woke up, just in time to cook our dinner.
Pero, naawa ang aking baby sister. :D
She cooked! Thank GOD!

Now, after 2 hrs of sleep.
I'm still not convinced as to whether I will go to work or not!
Sobrnag pagod na ako.
I need time to rest!
I need time to think!
Pero, looking at the email i received.
Hinahanap na ako ni H.D.Lo.
And I must consult Charles about some stuff.

I need to get over this emotional trauma, I have had this past few days.

Pagod na si Wee.
Kailangan na niya ng rest.

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Kailangan na nya ng MOTIVATION

Hindi Kita Mahal

Hango sa isang email na natangap ko kamakailan.
Nakakatuwang nasahin. Cool lang.

"hindi na kita mahal"

Familiar sa pandinig noh?!?
alam mo ba na out of 10 people na
nagsabi nyan 5
ang nagsasabi ng totoo??
yes! meaning
5 ang sinungaling!
Kc, minsan maraming dahilan kung bakit
nasasabi yan...
iSiPin MO ito..

Nasasabi ang linyang yan sa mga
sitwasyon gaya ng..

NAGUGULUHAN
ito ung mga taong nasa isang relasyon pgktapos eh may iba pang mahal.. kailangan nilang mapaniwala ang sarili na hindi na nila mahal ung isa para, mahalin naman ung isa pa.

(HALIMBAWA: im sori may iba na kong mahal, HINDI NA KITA MAHAL)

pero echos! ang totoo di ka naman syur kung sino pa talga sa kanila ang matimbang... gets mo?
(kung hindi kawawa ka naman..=)

MASAMA ANG LOOB
eto naman ung mga taong katatapos lng hiwalayan o nagawan ng di maganda sa isang relasyon.

(HALIMBAWA: bakit nya nagawa sakin toh! HINDI KO NA SYA MAHAL!)

pero ay naku dala lng yan ng sama ng loob mo..sige hinga ng malalim..tulog ng mahimbing.. paggising mo bukas naku...sya na naman ang naalala mo..

(miz mo noh? =)

BASTED
as in ayaw nya daw sayo..

PARE OKEI KA LNG?
(SAGOT: okei lng ako pre, wala na un hindi ko na rin sya mahal)

uyyy pa-macho epek..

SISTER OKEI KA LNG?
(SAGOT: yuh im okei, as in hindi ko na sya mahal noh?!)

ows? go gurl!

LIHIM NA PAG-IBIG
eto naman ung mga taong ayaw ipaalam sa kanilang minamahal ang totoo, para lang mapagtakpan ang nararamdaman nila, lalo na't binubuking na sila..

(HALIMBAWA: Hindi ko sya mahal ah, friend lng ang turing ko sa kanya.)

PA-I WILL SURVIVE epek
eto ang mga taong gusto ng kumawala sa hawla ng alala ng taong minamahal..

(HALIMBAWA: pagod na ko..from now on, kakalimutan ko na sya, hindi ko na sya mahal! smart na ko ngayon, i will survive!)

TAAS NG PRIDE
eto ung mga taong di nila maamin sa sarili nila na mahal nila ang isang person kc nga malayo sa standard nila ung gurl/guy or lets say may ibang dahilan..pero nainlab sila.

(HALIMBAWA: yun? hindi ko sya mahal noh. ako pa kilala nyo ko)
sabay Naka cross ang mga fingers ng kanilang hands and feet!

TAKOT
eto ung mga taong dahil ilang beses na nasaktan sa larangan ng pag ibig, eh ayaw ng magmahal kahit na mahal naman talga nila ang isang taong nagmamahal sa kanila..

(HALIMBAWA: ayaw ko ng masaktan ulit...hindi kita mahal..) ..o tapos? hehe

PAGHIHIGANTI
eto naman ung mga taong binabalikan matapos ng hiwalayan...syempre sobra nga naman sila nasaktan kaya sasabihan nya ng "MASYADO AKONG NASAKTAN SA MGA NANGYARI, HINDI NA KITA MAHAL" ...o loko bagay sayo!

maraming dahilan, maraming paraan para sabihin natin ito ..
pero sana, sa susunod na sabihin mo sa kanyang
hindi mo na sya mahal .. eh ung totoo na.
Yung kaya mo na,
yung sigurado ka,
at un talga ang nararamdaman mo..
mahirap na..
Paano kung mawala pa sya?...
Paano kung mahal ka pa talaga nya?..
Paano na kung mahal ka nya...
Paano Kung mahal ka rin nya
at mahal mo pa rin sya.

At sa ibang taong makakaranas naman
neto..pag sinabihan ka ng
HINDI NA KITA MAHAL! / HINDI KITA
MAHAL!

chin up! and say...
STYLE MO BULOK! LIARS GO TO
HELL!!

tabladoooooohhhh!!!!!
wahahahahaaaaa!!!! ouch

Review

I woke up this morning, without any idea where I am.
The room seemd a little bit spacious but a lot more "dugyot"

Now I remember, I'm HOME.
I'm sleeping on top of my baby sister's bed.

She's not around.
Hmm... Friday pa lang pala?!
Yep! It's a weekday.
She's got class at 830.

And i'm still here.
Still drowsy, still grogggyyy..

I got up and found my mom reading her books.
It amaze me, how she got all that enthusiasm.

We had a short talk about work and work attitude.
About my emotions towards the application i'm working on.
Its just nice to know that she still wants me to be a "RICH DAD" and have that financial freedom.

After, 30 more minutes I was off to LB
I arrived at CHOWKING (crossing , lb ) in time. 9am.

Anne, provided reading materials more comprehensive than those I've been carrying around.
I haven't had my breakfast yet so I ate before I proceed with the computation part of the sample exam.

Through out the day, I actively participated in computation and theoretical discussion.
I learned a lot and I think I'm not quite prepared.

Pero, to last more than 8 hrs..
Di ko na kaya.
I had to leave.

Nakatulog ako sa sasakyan..
Para akong manok. hehehe.

I went straight to my mom's office.
There I saw Jerry!
Grabeh! mahal ko na siya..
tsk tsk tsk...
It's a pity that i could only see him every afternoon.
And only on a weekday.

There, I sat on the bamboo chair.
Placed some pillows on my throbbing head.
I closed my eyes for a minute.
Finally, i can feel the Vacation leave I badly need.

PROFESSIONAL SQUATTER

Miscarriage

Long have you been waiting for that day to come
Proud to have achieved such high role in the cycle.
To have a reason for being.

Filled with excitement and noxious with anxiety
Till that moment of agony shatter the silence.

You have delivered something so wonderful

Yet, in an instant things turn upside down.
Life was sucked out in a flash.
No sign of moving forward.

All that remains were the remnants of what could have been.
All that could have been were scattered.
Broken and couldn't be fixed.

Just there.
Dead.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Baby, I'm so sorry I disappointed you.
Things could have been better if I was careful.
But shit happens, and no matter what I do.
They'll always see the incident that happened
and not the effort I have given to put you into place.

No matter what happens, I won't give you up.
( Cut Over Crisis Soon to be posted )

Preparing for the worst!

This is what I have become..
.. a lonely brain-wreaked person

Demented by the present..
.. tormented by the past

TABS

Lekat kasi yan, nalilimutan ko kung san nilalagay mga chords e..
ULitin natin ang lessons.
From the Top!
Bago magpa EXAM si kuya KaarLO :S


Ako'y Sa Iyo, Ika'y Akin
I Axe

Intro:
e-----------------5----5-|
B-2------3-5-------7---6-|
G-----1---------6---6--7-|
D---2----------7-------7-| 2x
A-0------2-4--5--------5-|
E------------------------|

Verse 1:
AM7 F#m
Ikaw na ang nagsabi
Bm E
Na ako'y mahal mo rin
AM7 F#m
At ang sinabi mo
Bm E
Ang pag-ibig mo'y di magbabago

Chorus 1:
DM7 Dm
Ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako'y lumalapit
A A7
Ika'y lumalayo
DM7 Dm A F#m
Puso'y laging nasasaktan pag may kasama kang iba
Bm C#m-Dm - C#m
Di ba nila alam
Bm C#m-Dm (pause)
Tayo'y nagsumpaan
DM7 (hold) Dm (hold)
Na ako'y sayo, at ika'y akin lamang

(Repeat Intro)

Verse 2: (same as Verse 1)
Kahit anong mangyari
Pag-ibig ko'y sayo parin
Kahit ano pa
Ang sabihin nila'y
Ikaw parin

Chorus 2: (same as Chorus 1)
Ang mahal
Maghihintay ako
Kahit kailan
Kahit na
Umabot pang ako'y
Nasa langit na
At kung di ka makita
Makikiusap kay bathala

Bridge:
DM7 (hold) Dm (hold)
Na ika'y hanapin, at sabihin

A
Ipaalala sa iyo
F#m Bm-C#m-Dm
Ang nakalimutang sumpaan
DM7 (hold) Dm (hold)
Na ako'y sayo, at ika'y akin lamang

(Solo) (Guitar 2: do Verse chords)

Chorus 3:
DM7
Umasa ka...
Dm
Maghihintay ako
A A7
Kahit kailan
DM7
Kahit na...
Dm
Umabot pang ako'y
A F#m
Nasa langit na
Bm C#m-Dm - C#m
At kung di ka makita
Bm C#m-Dm
Makikiusap kay bathala

(Repeat Bridge & Intro once and end on a AM7 chord)
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CHORDS:

Verses:
AM7 F#m Bm E
e--0---2--2--0--|
B--2---2--3--0--|
G--1---2--4--1--|
D--2---4--4--2--|
A--0---4--2--2--|
E------2-----0--|

Chorus:
DM7 Dm A A7 F#m Bm C#m Dm
e--2--1--0--0--2--2--4---5--|
B--2--3--2--2--2--3--5---6--|
G--2--2--2--0--2--4--6---7--|
D--0--0--2--2--4--4--6---7--|
A--------0--0--4--2--4---5--|
E--------------2------------|

Note: (for the Bm chord: this is how you play it)
e-2---|
B-2h3-|
G-4---|
D-4---|
A-2---|
E-----|

Charlie

The only person whom I admire the most..
The only person whom I look up to.
The only person whom I could build my world around..
The person I have leaned on for so long..

My hero.
My friend.

The person who put me in the pedestal.
The person who look up to me..
The person who have nurtured me..

Is killing my spirit..
Is crushing my soul..
Is tormenting my memories..
Is destroying my dreams..

I love him..
But he needs to set me free..

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
it hurts so much to see the person you love the most, slowly destroy himself...

The Day You Said Goodnight

By HALE

Take me as you are,
Push me off the road
The sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I’m freezing in the sun;
I’m burning in the rain
The silence;
I’m screaming,
Calling out your name.
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you’ll lose the side of your circles
That’s what I’ll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn’t ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you’ll lose the side of your circles
That’s what I’ll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all right.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

She’s already taken,
she’s already taken
She’s already taken me
She’s already taken,
she’s already taken
She’s already taken me.
The day you said goodnight.

ACCOUSTIC NIGHT!

Creampuff, Cubie and Wee
(article to follow)

BayWalk Night Out

Accoustic Night at Baywalk...

After almost a year of staying here in malate, we finally decided to see the 'lighter' side of the place. By sunset, most people from the corporate world usually flock by the makati area. They are either heading home or hangging around coffee shop. Removing all the tensions the boss has installed into the his/her poor partly-crippled-brain-cell- drained employee's mind.

But not us! Nah ah! Instead of sitting on a coffee shop listening to jazz or "starbucks" soundtrack, WE CHOOSE LIVE! ( If that is what you'll call a bunch of pipol singing on stage, playing the guitar and beating the drum...in tune of the latest chacha and reggae.) This is the closest thing to a real concert after putting up with demanding BPS and demented HK counterparts. This is no USHER concert but it's definitely much better than nothing at all.

Carpooling, we arrived at the place with a little more past 8pm. By 9pm, we have finally decided where to eat and what to eat.

Ah... the stench!
I mean... Ah... the smell of the sea.. :D
It's really refreshing! ( to see other people other that those working from DOLE and the Liner...hehehe..)

Plus! Jeggy came.. :D
( Mukha nga lang sumide-line muna..hahaha..'coz he had to walk from the parking lot to the place we're at. )

The food is ok.
The service is slow.
The first band was good.

They had this up beat medley song, which eventually triggered the 'KOREAN' ladies to dance a jig. From a simple clapping to some bootie shaking moves... They really took our breathe away! Funny thing is ... their dance number became the high light of the night! They even attracted more attention! Good thing for the resto, bad thing for us.. hehehe.

When the second band arrived, we were transported back in time. It was as if we have been sucked into a time spacewarp.. where chacha#2 was the hit! And the songs have no lyrics at all! Hahaha.. It reminded me of those sunday mid morning radio prtion dedicated for the 'oldies-but-the-goodies'

Eventually, We left the resto.. and hang around the place for more pictures. By 10pm, Kaye, Jode, Memen and Kuya Carlo left..

Bored with "Ngay" singing in the back ground, we decided to ride the "ikot" . It took us some time to arrive at CCP drive past the weather proff STAR CITY and the jam packed LUNETA PARK. It cost us P25 / person. Not bad.. but neither is it better.

He texted me, asked bout my night out. My fault, big part of me never wanted to see him.. I am afraid of rejection.

After a cup of FIGARO coffee for Marga and MILK for Jeggy, we decided to call it a night.
It was time to part our ways and move on with life.

Tomorrow is another intoxicating day...
A nother day with our HK counter parts.
Another day to fill up.. Another set of challenges...

Another episode.. to watch! ;)
The Revenge of the Sith

Picture Gallery

CreamPuff

Hi Creampuff,

Thanks for dropping by.
I really enjoyed our joy ride around malate.. 'BLUE-BAY' and Baywalk last night.
It's nice to talk to you again in person.
To laugh again like old times.. ;)
To have our long funny and somewhat nonsense conversation. hehehe

Sorry kung di po ako nakasabay mag dinner...
Maybe next time, fine dining sa JOLIBEE?! (as requested) hehehe..
Don't forget to bring me a handful of BORA sand when you come back.
I'll be here waiting. I'll take on your 'pitikan challenge' anytime...

Wish we could visit the batcave...someday..soon..(hehehe..)

Ciao,
Wee

P.S.
Daan ka later..
Accoustic Night! Patay ka kay Cubie.. :D

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Somethings are better off left alone and kept secret.

Belleview

My sister already knows how to drive the FORD Escape I'm drooling over. That is why, I decided to step on the gas and drive the eXtreme back home today. My Ego is now as big as a plasitic balloon blown by a three year old kid with different patches on the side. Ha! Bitterness =P

We are fortunate to have arrived at our door step safe and unscratched.. ;)

Today, I bought a new electric fan.
Yup! It's less than a Thousand.
Now i'm more sorry to have loss that blue bill.

And How I really wish I could change my wardrobe...
A perfect floral blouse from kamiseta or kashica cost more than the industrial fan i bought.
haaayy... Next time.. Yan ang goal ko.. ;)

What To Do?

My Schedule is fully booked.
But i'm not going anywhere...
I wish I could, do something.. that I love the most.
Or at least something that is scheduled to be done.
But my mind is still scattered.
I couldn't focus.
I want my coffee.. :(

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I want new adventures but there are a lot more things in life worth accomplishing than figuring out.

GOODBYE

by WeirDo

now it's time for me to say goodbye
and we'll have our tears to cry
now it's really goodbye

how i hate to see us in this world of lies
for things didn't turn out the way we planned
for all the things we've said and done

chorus:

now it's goodbye
for the two of us
let the stars above see us
as we part
let the wind and the rain
hear us
as we say goodbye

even if time is not ours
we're still trying,
still hoping
for our love to come true

though it's hard for me
and it's tough for you to let to

(chorus uli)

Baaaadd Daaay

Nawalan ako ng P1000 sa cube ko..
Sayang pambayad ko pa naman sa bill ko ng phone..

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Gusto kong umiyak..
Pero, wala naman akong magagawa..
I just hope na kailangan talaga ng kumuha un..

G26 Block Outing

Once upon a time there were 26 BS Computer Science Students from UP Diliman...
Some came from the cool high lands of Baguio..
Some from the land of hot springs - Laguna...
Some were risen from the skirts of Mt. Mayon..
Some from the place where Magellan landed..
Some ran wildly on top of the Chocolate hills..
Others were from the beautiful south...

Within the span of more than four years they have battled the tough life in the wild jungle of Quezon City...
Some survived the obstacle within 4 years...
Some have just made it through..
while the others are still holding on...

A year ago.. 7 of them have moved on and left the sacred sanctuary that nurtured them..
Ric, Acel, Ayze, Leo, Ivy, Vergel and Wee...

Summer after that...they went on a jurney up north.. BAGUIO

May 1-2 Weekend at Baguio
Host: Ayze ( One of the Graduates )

This Year : 2005
6 more have step out of the shell..
Ceej, Cha, Beth, Pat, Esti, and Bheng

To celebrate the summer, freedom and new beginning...

We went to LAGUNA..
May 7-8
Technical Host : ESTi ( One of the graduates )

Overnight stay at Monte Vista Resort..
Swim. Slide. Scandal :P
Chikahan to the max...

Low Budget.. and without preparation..
We could only wish na meron kaming resources..
I couldn't offer anything kahit na ilang kilometro lang ang layo ng bahay ko..

But all in all..
The experiences were fun..
The talks were casual.. and intellectual. :D
So most of us .. by now.. have understood the meaning of RDBMS.
And the answer to the question -> Where is 'Jan'?

By 10:30am..
We checked out of the room and went to UP LB.
Nope not to enroll again..
But to eat our "BREAKFAST" (around 11am) at ESTI's humble abode.
We hang around the kitchen..
Cook some food...While some of us read some magazine and rest...

A bunch of wacko and starved pipol.. We dig in!
Sarap ng food nila ESTI!
Corned Beef, HOTDOGs, Sardines in Butter, and BUGONG Chiken..
Yum Yum...
Mango Juice, Coke Light and Reeeeaaaally Cold Water.. (The best!)
PLus IRRI rice ang kanin.. hehehe
Salamat po! :D

After lunch.. Leo and Pat played the guitar...
Grabeh.. I liked that song..(You and Me)
Plus that 'GOODBYE' song you composed.. Hingi ako ng copy ha! * mwah *
Took Some pictures.. And ate more..Cake! Miss ko na MERNELS!

Later we said thank you and goodby to ESTI's family..

Tired and Quite FULL..
We head home..
Knowing and promising that next year our host will be LEO.
We will be at Cebu beh!
Yep yep! We will be riding a boat and visiting all the beaches..
^__^ Hopefully sa Bohol makadaan kami..

By 2007, Ceej, Pat and RG will be accomodating us at Mindanao.
I just can't wait..

...to have that road trip around the Philippines! ^__^

Where do I go from here?

I have to admit wala na akong area of specialty.

Hindi ako hard core programmer...
I have forgotten my language - JAVA..
I'm not even close to identifying the business logic of the current company I'm working...
I haven't enrolled in the art class..plus, I have given up on drawing..
I haven't asked for Masterals either...
I don't want to take swimming lessons..
I have stopped my guitar lessons...
I don't want to read more novels..finished them all..
I haven't started reading my notes on realty...
I don't think I'll be able to sell any property either...
I have no intensions of being involve in a realtionship...
I don't want to look like girlie or pretty for anyone..
I couldn't travel because my resources are limited...
I don't know how to cook..
I'm dead lazy..
I don't have money..

Current Status: LOST!
where do i go from here?
Any suggestions?

Bitterness ! Oh How sweet?!

AD: Any short term goals? How about long term?
WP: Mag-aasawa na ako! * Laugh *
--- silence ---
WP: (Seriously) Nope, I have no intetions of marrying anyone...

I have no grudge against life or love life..
It's just that I have been traumatized to the max..
with what? -> by first hand information from those so close to me..

Sure, I have 'flings', dates and surely have "fallen" from.. ( somewhere i have forgetten )
But everytime i try to imagine myself with someone as in literally have a commitment or relationship other than a common friend or aquintance.. i get the shivers and try to run away from the idea.
Ewan! Basta!

Kaya I prefer to be makulit, palingkera or pilosopo...
I try to drive away the person whom I think could like me..
Or that someone, who would much likely catch my attention..

I wear this mask.. to protect me..or him..to run away..

Maybe I'm just stupid, over reacting, selfish or just coward...
This is pathetic! I know...

My reason : I don't want that "special" person to suffer because of me. Or for me to suffer because I wanted him to be part of my already complicated life...

So, here I am single...
Ready to fall... but I won't sink in.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Any long ter goals?
Sure! Learn to be brave enought to take the risk

SunRays and saturdays

Open the window
Let the sunset in
If only for the last time
Let me see you smile again

I'll take my records
You can have your books
I'm sorry I never read them
But it says so much about us

Always trying
To make love out of care
The perfect recipe
But something wasn't there

[Chorus:]
Sunrays and Saturdays
Perfect starry nights
Sweet dreams and moonbeams
And a love that's warm and bright
Sunrays and Saturdays
Friendship strong and true
Oceans of blue and a room with a view
To live the life you choose

You'll write me letters
I'll call you on the phone
A wire away from touching
And never quite alone

We'll get to know ourselves again
And we'll heal our hearts
It's not that we're bad together
We're just better off apart

Always trying
To have one and one make two
And even though it never worked
I still feel love for you

[Chorus]

Congrats! La Sallite ka na!

5 words that could make my day

hi wee. I miss ya!

Baka Naman

By Stonefree

di magawang alisin ang aking mata
sa anghel na nakikita
iniibig na ba kita oh ewan ko ba?
di magawang magtanong ng aking bibig irog na dalaga
sino ka nga ba talaga kasi, kasi, kasi


Baka naman may minamahal ka ng iba
iba naman ang yong tinitingnan
sige, sige baka magsise


umiiwas sa yong mga tingin
sa twing ika'y tumitingin
twing ika'y tumitingin din sa'kin noon
nalilito, gustong ilabas,
gusto rin namang itago na lang
ngunit baka naman yong pagtawanan lamang
kasi, kasi, kasi


baka naman..

Horoscope

Again, i'm browsing at friendster and I saw this weird horoscope..
Why does it always have to be ... correct...
Or should i say.. somewhat relavant to my personal experience for the day..

The Bottom Line

They say don't talk to strangers, but you know better. Trust your instinct.

In Detail

If anyone can cheer someone up, it's you. You're a natural-born clown, with a philosophical streak a mile wide that allows you to understand the motivations of others -- maybe even better than they understand those motivations themselves. So when a loved one comes to you now with a problem, do what you do best: Draw them out, listen to their story and help them figure out what to do next. Then take them out and get them laughing. It really is the best medicine.

Ninang Lyn

Stephen Nayya Tan

Ninang nanaman ako! ang bilis ng panahon...