Bitterness ! Oh How sweet?!

AD: Any short term goals? How about long term?
WP: Mag-aasawa na ako! * Laugh *
--- silence ---
WP: (Seriously) Nope, I have no intetions of marrying anyone...

I have no grudge against life or love life..
It's just that I have been traumatized to the max..
with what? -> by first hand information from those so close to me..

Sure, I have 'flings', dates and surely have "fallen" from.. ( somewhere i have forgetten )
But everytime i try to imagine myself with someone as in literally have a commitment or relationship other than a common friend or aquintance.. i get the shivers and try to run away from the idea.
Ewan! Basta!

Kaya I prefer to be makulit, palingkera or pilosopo...
I try to drive away the person whom I think could like me..
Or that someone, who would much likely catch my attention..

I wear this mask.. to protect me..or him..to run away..

Maybe I'm just stupid, over reacting, selfish or just coward...
This is pathetic! I know...

My reason : I don't want that "special" person to suffer because of me. Or for me to suffer because I wanted him to be part of my already complicated life...

So, here I am single...
Ready to fall... but I won't sink in.

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Any long ter goals?
Sure! Learn to be brave enought to take the risk