Erasing the Past
I'm one of those sentimental person.
I value lots of thing in my life.
Last friday, my mom called me.
JD is having a problem... He's been corrupted.
JD (Joshua Daniel) is my computer when I was in College.
He was "the best" pc during those time.
I cried when it was first reformatted..
Why?!!!
Andun yung MP na kailangan kong isubmit para makapasa ng CS150.
I almost failed.
But then, that pc contained almost everything..
The sound track of my college life.
The pictures that I have taken during my ilang years.
The Machine Problems that I've worked on.
The games that I played.
The term papers and all the kikay stuff of my roomates.
My first web site.
These are only the few things that I remember...
And although I could say that most of the files were backed up.
I just couldn't believe what happened.
Matagal ko ng binabalak burahin lahat.
Mag simula sa simula..
Pero mahirap i let go ang nakaraan..
Siruro nga mabuti na din ang nangyari..
Biglaan!
Walang emosyon.
Sapilitan.
Those Memories are wonderful things, if only i don't have to deal with the past.
Maybe it's really easier to let go of the past if you don't have to think about it that much.
~ nonsense talking ~
About a boy
Yesterday, me and my old high school friends met. After almost a year of not seing each other.. ( except kay Carleen) Finally, na organize din ang "reunion" namin. Funny because we have to wait for this boy to come to this world for us to meet again. Manuel the third. -> TRES.
That saturday afternoon turned out to be an exciting one. Chikka chikka.. I've learned so much and so many...I learned how things go around here in LB. What's the other pipol's extracuricular activities, hang ups, down low and so on.. Iniisip ko minsan, dapat ba akong maawa sa friend ko... She got into a relationship and is now a mother. There are still too much ahead of her. Too much opportunity to be siezed. To many adventures to take. But when I saw that baby...
This little kid is her career. This is her very hard task. This is what's ahead of her. Her own adventure. Her piece of heaven and hell.Her little angel. I think she's not that unfortunate...She'll be alright... She's got him.
We left before the sun sets.. Promising that one of these days... we'll meet again.. :D
I don't think i'll be able to go thru that process of giving birth.. :S
It's too scary..sana ung husband ko nalang ang manganak.. hehehe..
But i want to have one of my own.. Someday.. :D
Blog Change
I'm Planning to change this blog..
Medyo di ko pa alam kung anong design..
Feeling ko kasi mukha siyang may sakit e..
ADD..o ADHD .. (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) Hehehe..
Pwede ding -> Identity crisis... ;)
Either way, plano pa lang naman ito e..
Hopefully magkaroon ako ng free time.(As if magkakaroon....)
Para naman malinis ko na din ang template nito at itsura sa IE..
Nakita ko lang na panget sya sa IE e..
If not, this blog will temporarily be unavailable.
(unless further depression comes .. ;) joke lang )
Oo nga pala may bago akong tagboard..
Please feel free to try..
Tagal ko din bago napag isipang ikabit at ilagay yan.. hahaha..
That's All for now..
Ciao
Wee
Value Of Work
We had a visitor today at the Office.
One of the CEO/CIO of the company came to OPI to visit.
It's really weird because we have to dress up, clean our cubicles and behave properly.
He presented earlier today, about corporate terms and current status of the Depeartment.
While I stuggle to put work out of my mind, I couldn't help but wonder where do I fit in.
Yes, I have task and support works...
But besides scripts, java and oracle..
where do I belong in the company?
Does my work have importance?
Or just an Ad hoc to the great big CDRIVE?
I wonder, if ever I leave this place..
Could I stand proud and say that I have gained experience?
Sometimes, it's hard to put things into perspective.
Maybe most of the time, I feel like the "middle" child or the "unnotice" kid.
Someone who couldn't appreciate what the value of work assigned.
But what the heck, I really would like to learn from the business while I'm here.
Least I could say to my "future" officemates - if not my next job - that I did something to improve the system or company where I've been.
The GIFT
It's not the price..
It's not the beauty..
It's not the quality..
It's the use.
It's the need.
It's the thought that always counts.
THANKS!
MIS TEAM
through the looking glass
To find solice in solitude
It has been a while since I last heard a full mass, and be in a church literally.
I have missed the feeling of comfort and strength I find inside a chapel.
Weird as It might seem...
I really do like to be a nun.
I like talking to HIM.
I find peace in my heart.
And the secured feeling that wraps around you like a gentle arms of a protective mother.
This is my sanctuary, this is my own heaven
Of Baywalks and Bands
It is 12:39am and I'm still at the office..
Lui dropped me off.Galing kami sa BayWalk.
Kasama nami si Jode..
Kung bakit kami na punta sa lugar na iyan, isa lang ang dahilan..ORANGE and LEMONS
Yep, habang kami ay kumakain kanina ng masarap na manok na galing sa manukan. Si LUI ay nag bigay sa akin ng suhestyon at isang "tempting offer" - "WATCH OnL sa INDO's"
Ako naman, bilang isang dalagang pilipina ay tumangi.. hihihi (Joke lang!)
Shempre GO! GO! GO! ako.. kahit pa ako ang self proclaimed designated alalay for the night ng mga swimmers hehehe..
Pagkatapos mapag desisyonang sasama kami ni Jodel sa GiG, kami ay nag tungo sa EAC. Emilio Aguinaldo College upang hanapin ang swimming pool nila. Dadalahin ko na sa kanila ang kanila dinner.
Di naman ganoon ka layo ang nilakad ko.. Konti lang.. ;)
Di bale na sanang nag mukha akong tinderang naglalako ng ulam, aba't tarayan daw ba ako ni Manong Guard!
Mabuti nalang at nandun si Dar, kung di maghihintay pa ako kasama ni manong Guard.
Ang ulan ay unti unting tumitila at ang bawat patak ng ambon ay humihina na.
Wala pa ang mga bituwin subalit malinaw na ang langit.
Kami ay naglakad mula Aristocrat patungong Indo's.
Walang tao sa Baywalk.. Malungkot..
Tinangay ng hangin at ulan ang sayang bumabalot sa lugar, papalayo sa syudad ng di kalayuan.
Kami ay walang pang nadatnan sa lugar.
Sabi nila, pag di na umulan tuloy ang laban. hihihi
Kami ay nag lakad lakad, tumakbo takbo at nag usap usap..
Hanggang sa mapagod at umupo muna sa Figaro..
Pagkatapos ng ilang Oras pa, kami ay bumalik na sa lugar.
Ayos! nAka set up na!
May tumutugtog na..
Hindi pa ang OnL kaya sa tabi lang kami..
Ilang minuto pa, unti unting nagdagsaan ang mga tao..
Hmmm... oras na para humanap kami ng magandang lugar..
Subalit, ito ay isang kabiguan lamang.
Sapagkat patuloy ang pag kanta ng bandang pasaway sa entablado.
Ok lang naman sila. Funny. Nakakaaliw.
Pero sobrang kalye ng salita, termino at jokes nila.
Kung pikon ka, pwede kang ma offend.
Kaya't ganun na lamang ang tuwa namin ng matapos sila.
At marinig na tinutugtog ang kanta ng OnL sa malaking speaker sa tabihan.
Ilang minuto ang lumipas...
5.. 10 .. 15...
Unti unti na kaming nawawalam ng pag asa..
Hanggang sa isang malagim na katotohanan ang sumalubong sa amin..
Paakyat nanaman ang bandang kanina lamang ay tumutogtog sa entablado..
Ngay!
Lui: "Tutogtog pa ba ang Orange and Lemons?"
Waiter: " Hindi na po "
Dali dali kaming tumayo, dala ang aming mabibigat na paa at mineral water bottle na may tubig pa.
Tapos ang gabing malungkot si Lui..
(BEFORE) -------------------------------> (AFTER)
Hinatid namin si Jode sa Baclaran pauwi.
Dumaan kami sa macapagal high way pauwi.. sa gitna ng madilim na lugar..
Kaya naman hanggang dito sa opisina dala ko ang takot at kaba.
na baka sa likod ko ay may taong nakasampa...
Loko ka talaga lui.. =P
Kung bakit ako nasa Opisina ng ganitong oras?
Simple lang..
May white lady akong kasama pauwi..
Isang babaeng nakapantulog na puti, na naglakad mag isa
Tangan ang isang puting payong, panangga sa kaaway..
Na sa sobrang sipag nya nga inabot kami ng 2AM.
-> char char COOOFFFFFEEEE!!
Masaya ako! kahit di ko nakita ang OnL..
Alam ko I have had weird experiences, pero masaya naman ang ganitong kind ng adventure.
matagal tagal na din mula ng huling akong lumabas ng biglaan, tumakbo sa kalsada habang may rumaragasang sasakyan at trak na inaabot ng alas dos ng madaling araw sa labas.
Plus! I got to know 2 cool persons, from OPI. ;)
Eleven Minutes
"All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, that's a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.
It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.
That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it."
SnowWizard
I wanted to create something using Photoshop and Flash. Unfortunately, My knowledge in that field is sooo minimal as compared to those who have mastered the craft.
I reaalllly want to make a cool logo for this blog.
Maybe, I'll change the theme or the colors..
Something GIRLIE...
Something Pinkish..
hihihi..
Wala lang...
Medyo tired na din ako sa pagiging bitter and gloomy..
Hopefully, I'll be able to design a banner for my blog.
Ciao,
SnowWizard ;)
TELL ME
Tuning: Standard
Intro:
C9 G/B F/A G9 E/G# Am Am/G D/F# Gsus G
e|--------------1------------0----------------2-----3-----3-|
b|--3----3---1---1--3-----0----0--1-----1-----3-----3-----3-|
g|--0----0---2-2----4-------------2-----2-----2-----5-----4-|
d|--2----0---3--------------6-----2-----2-----0-----5-----5-|
a|--3----2------------------------0-----------0-----5-----5-|
e|------------------3-3/4-4-------------3-----2-----3-----3-|
Verse: Just do the same plucking like on the intro. I just put the chords on the top of the lyrics
so you can't be confuse on the timing.
C9 G/B F/A G9
There are nights when I can't help but cry
E/G# Am Am/G D/F# Gsus-G
And I wonder why you have to leave me
C9 G/B F/A G9
Why did it have to end so soon?
E/G# Am Am/G D/F# Gsus-G/F
When you said that you would never leave me
G/F
e|--3--|
b|--0--|
g|--0--|
d|--0--|
a|--2--|
e|--1--|
Chorus:
Em7 Am7 FM7 Em7 Am7
Tell me, where did I go wrong
Fm7 Em7 Am7 D7sus Gsus-G/F
What did I do to make you change your mind completely?
Em7 Am7 FM7 Em7 Am7
When I thought this love would never end
FM7 Em7 Am7
But if this love's not ours to have
Dm7 Gsus (interlude)
I'll let it go with your goodbye
Repeat 2nd Stanza
Repeat Chorus except last word
(coda)
....goodbye
Coda: Sori po, di ko pa kc nakukuha ung lead part,.. hehe
C9-G/B-F/A-Gsus-G/F
C9-G/B-F/A-Gsus-E/G#-Am-Am/G-D/F#-Gsus-G/F
Repeat Chorus
stay
cueshé
I believe
we shouldnt let the moment pass us by
life's too short
we shouldnt wait for the water to run dry
think about it
cause we only have one shot at destiny
all im asking
could it possibly be you and me?
So if you'd still go, i'll understand
would you give me something just to hold on to?
and if you'll stay, ill hold your hand
cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Time has come
for us to go our separate ways
God forbid
But my mind is going crazy today
i feel so cold
feel so numb
im having nightmares but im awake
Help me lord
Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away
So if you'd still go, i'll understand
would you give me something just to hold on to?
and if you'll stay, ill hold your hand
cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Now that you're gone, im all alone
im still hoping that you would come back home
dont care how long, but im willing to wait
Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
To Blog Again..
It has been a while since I last write a decent article.
Maybe, because I have been too busy with work. I've been too obsessed with my "MISCARRIAGE" that i couldn't let go of the past. I really got to learn how to let go of the past.. *Shit* happens! I just got to clean the mess I have made.
Plus, I've been sick. Typhoid kicked me hard. It hit me like a giant boulder on the head. I wasn't even aware that I have it. I was isolated for 4 days sa bahay.. Although I was able to watch MADAGASCAR with my Sister at ATC last Saturday while we stay at the luxurious BELLEVIEW HOTEL.
It was fun while it lasted. There was a live band on the roof deck. Cool sounds by the way. But I was too absorbed with my current physical health status.. (i decided to go back to the room and watch movies )
I have had the worst experience when it comes to HOSPITALS..
Last sunday, I still had some fever. I couldn't swallow my food yet. So I decided to have it checked up. Unfortunately, the hospital had the worst medical records ever, the slowest medical attendants and the dirtiest bathroom. I won't tell kung saan pero, exaj!
That might be the reason why I couldn't get myself to believe the prescription i'm still holding right now. But then, sino ang aayaw sa isangbuong araw na tulog at tv. bwahawhawhawha...
So, there I was sitting on top of my self-made-sofa-turned-bed. I saw this classic movie, FRANKENSTEIN. Cool film. Natakot ako at first. Hehehe.. mag isa lang kasi ako.. But then, as the movie goes, I pity the thing Victor Frankenstein created. Hay... Not good..Now, I was even more bothered.
Going back to work on a Tuesday, with my nose still running and my mind still confuse, is a terrible idea. Naguguilty lang kasi ako, nag eenjoy na kasi ako sa bahay. Ang if I stay longer, sasabunutan na ako ng sister ko. She would drag me to the kitchen and force me to wash all the dishes and cook diner. Who would want that di ba? hahahah..
WOwOrk woRk..
Back to Reality..
Na miss na ako ni H.D.
Na miss na ako ng HK
Tahimik na sa OPI.. kailangan ko ng bumalik. :D
BaCk from Mount SiCkNess
Still recovering pero ok na ako..
I have a Running nose..
and failing heart..
and partially disturb mind..
i think i'll be fine..
Ps. Thanks sa mga nag Txt Sa akin nung absent ako..
KenNeth
Couldn't really get over him..
MOnthLy Socials - MASKIPAPS
We held our fourth monthly socials sa ISD.
MASKIPAPS: The search for the next ISD POP Star in a Million
The First Day Funk Craze
Kasama ng buong IM team, kami ay naglunsad ng panibagong uso!
Oo, ang sariling sikap na interpretasyon ng bagong kanta ng parokya ni edgar.
Kaya nga maski papaano nila gawin, pwede na...
Ninais ng grupong IM, na ipakita sa lahat ang "natatagong" at sana nga'y tinago nalang na talento ng mga empleyado ng naturang debisyon.
At upang ganahan ang lahat, naghandog ng isang maikling sayaw ang IM team.
Bilang panimulang numero.
Mula sa Apat na sulok ng Enkantadya, nilikap namin ang mga hiyas ng bawat grupo.
Mula sa kaharian ng WEBanya - si IDOL Rage ay nagpamalas ng isang Rock naAccoustic.. (kung meron mang ganun..hehehe)
Mula naman sa Kalibliban ng EDIanya - Nabighani kami sa ganda ng awit na hinandog ni DANE at LOREN.
Gayun din, hindi nagpatalo ang LEAD SOLO GUITARIST na mula sa Bayan ng Conference Room (IRIS2) - si Ginooong Jun Bacoy.
Sa huli, ang pinuno ng koponang nagpasimula ng lahat ay naghandog ng isang mahinahong kanta.
Hinandugan ng Awit ni Pinunong Aimee at Datu Jonathan kasama ang dakilang manunugtog na si LUI ang mga dumalo sa pagtitipon.
Ang bawat kopunan ay nagpakitang gilas sa aming mga napiling hurado.
Gayun din ang mga baguhan, na nagpakita ng masiyang skit para sa lahat.
Sa huli, ang grupo nila MASTER (KAARLO) YODA ang nangibabaw..
Sila ay nag uwi ng isang cake.
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Handa:
Carbonara, Chicken, Puto, Ice cream, BBQ.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++
Hahahah...
Olats! Di ko maikwento ng ayos e..
Nakakahiya man sabihin ako din ay kumanta.
OO, hindi tumugtog ng gitara! -> Kumanta!
Masaya naman dahil pagkatapos, kami ay nagtipon tipon at nag kantahan.
Jamming! Tumugtog si Kuya Kaarlo at si Lui!
Habang ang iba ay kumain at kumanta!
Sayang nga at lang kailangan na akong umuwi...
Mahirap maging masaya kung malungkot ka!
Will
Will i ever draw again?
