Sick Sick Sick

I went to the doctor today because I'm not feeling well when I woke up this morning.

I couldn't breathe properly, my sinus is blocked and I couldn't swallow any food.
I'm really hungry pero para akong nasusuka.. 1 week na akong puyat with only 2-4hrs of sleep.
I have been having a hard time eating food, I could only have liquid, particularly COFFEE.
Kaya, eto nanginginig ako...

Matagal na mulang nagkaroon ako ng ganung feeling..siguro nung college, while we were doing thesis..

Nakaka drain ng lakas...

The Doctor said that I'm one of those people who are allergic to dust, perfume, etc.
At may kulani daw ako, not sure if this will develop into a beke..
As of now, I'm suppose to drink 4 different capsules 3x a day..

Hopefully Maayos na ito at least bago ako mag celebrate sa 8. :(

Ps. HKCTR CALLED.
I couldn't be of help.
I couldn't access my pc at sobrang nahihiya na ako kay mel.
Although sabi nya, he will check it. thank you mel :D
Bahala na, I dunno what happened sa kinutover namin.. :(
Seems to be ok.., I really want to take a rest. so i could think about it tomorrow.

BECAUSE OF YOU

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You Lyrics

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you


I'm really not into spilling details of my life right now..
Hindi ako masaya, pagod, harrassed, confused and I think I'm not physically fit. :(
10days before I turn a year older.
Another "millstone" in this life..
Makes me wonder, How much have I changed in the span of 1 year?

Better read the sound track of my life..You'll see kung ano ang takbo ng utak ng isang tulad ko.. ;)

Isang Gabi, Sa Harap ng Bahay ni KuYa

BRok - EN Once Again

I'm so tired of this sick cycle.

You breaking my heart - me hurting.
You asking for forgiveness - me forgiving.
You breaking my heart - me hurting.
You asking for forgiveness - me forgiving.

I know I should forgive you for what you have done.
I have accepted you as you are.
But you keep pushing your luck.
I'm not sure when you will stop.

I can forgive you.
But I want to help you.

This has to stop.
Help me - help you.

But how?
When you haven't told anyone why?

I know, I'll never be able to move on..
You'll always be there..

I just wish you can stand on your own...
when I'm gone.

Akin ka Na Lang

Akin Ka Na Lang
by J. Nicolas
from the album Noontime Show
performed by the itchyworms!

Intro

Verse 1
'Wag kang maniwala d'yan. 'Di ka n'ya mahal talaga
Sayang lang ang buhay mo kung mapupunta ka lang sa kanya
Iiwanan ka lang n'yan, mag-ingat ka
Dagdag ka lamang sa milyun-milyong babae n'ya

Chorus
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Iingatan ko ang puso mo
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Wala nang hihigit pa sa 'yo

Verse 2
'Di naman ako bolero katulad ng ibang tao
Ang totoo'y pag nandyan ka medyo nabubulol pa nga ako
Malangis lang ang dila n'yan, 'wag kang madala
Dahan-dahan ka lang, baka pati ika'y mabiktima ('Wag naman sana)

Repeat Chorus

Refrain
'Di naman sa sinisiraan ko ang pangit na 'yan
'Wag ka dapat sa'kin magduda, hinding-hindi kita pababayaan!

Repeat Chorus

Akin ka na lang
Liligaya ka sa pag-ibig ko
Akin ka na lang
At wala nang hihigit pa sa 'yo
Wala nang hihigit pa sa 'yo (akin ka na lang)

Harry Potter

Yehey!!!

Finally, Nakanood na din ako ng HP4 GF.
After the AR type process of gaining the sure seats at greenbelt, I think It's worth it.

Cool Effects..
Para sa di pa nanonood, manood na kayo.. :D

Cute si Cedric at Harry..
Pero mahal ko na si Viktor..

I'll post the details later..
So as not to spoil those who would be watching this sa weekend.. :D

Ciao

GUSTO NA KITANG MAKITA

GUSTO NA KITANG MAKITA
Session Road


Parang ang bagal ng takbo ng panahon pag wala ka
Alam kong walang dapat sisihin na ako'y
Nandito at nandiyan ka

Refrain:
Pero dahil malayo ka
Ako'y nalulungkot na

Chorus:
Gusto na kitang makita
(Kita kita sa mata)
Gusto na kitang makasama
(Magsama tayong dalawa)

Pininta mong larawan ko
Ang mga una kong nakikita sa umaga
Pagbangon sa kama siguradong
Ang araw ay may bagong pag-asa

Refrain:
Pero dahil malayo ka
Ako'y nalulungkot na

Chorus:
Gusto na kitang makita
(Kita kita sa mata)
Gusto na kitang makasama
(Magsama tayong dalawa)

Refrain:
Pero dahil malayo ka
Ako'y nalulungkot na

Chorus:
Gusto na kitang makita
(Kita kita sa mata)
Gusto na kitang makasama
(Magsama tayong dalawa)
Gusto na kitang makita
(Kita kita sa mata)
Gusto na kitang makasama
(Magsama tayong dalawa)
Gusto na kitang makita
(Kita kita sa mata)
Gusto na kitang makasama
(Magsama tayong dalawa)

Stuff Crap

I really don't know where to start.
I haven't had a single organized thought since last week..

And as much as I want to be happy and be high with the feeling i'm starting to feel for this person..
... I feel worst knowing that someone is never ever going to let go of me...

He'll always be there, ready to pull me back to reality.


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Event's

3Nov - Monthly Socials - Holloween Party
4Nov - Suppose to be loooong weekend..
- Went to the office to "monitor" a job
5Nov - meet Ric at MegaMall to catch up and borrow the reviewer I badly need.
- meet officemates at PowerBooks to go to Lui's "Debut"

11Nov - Realty Review ( kaloka to the max!!!)
- Made 6 sets of (9-feet long ) Christmas Decor..

* Pic and info to follow..
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26 days...and counting..
Hope my wish come true..

Post A Secret

Hmm..

Just got this link from a friend...
Interesting.. how people define and express their secrets in life.

Makes me wonder, how would I discribe the secret I have been hiding..