Let it Go

I received an email from one of my old ilang dormmate, and it caught my attention.
I wouldn't want it to be just a chain letter and be unrecognized.
Because I know that most of us, admit it or not have some issues that should have been addressed way back before.

Let It Go
By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go!!

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains......
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....
If someone has angered you........
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents ……
If you! You have a bad attitude.......
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him......
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......
If you're feeling depressed and stressed .........
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2006!!!
Get Right or Get Left... think about it, and then...

Let them go!!

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Reality is whatever you want it to be..It's not always the easiest way out, but you'll be better.

Ok.. I sound like "WEE" last year.. I'm beginning to be bitter and the angsts are way too much.
Pero I'm trying..really hard! I really have to let go, and be happy..
Sana mahanap ko na ang aking "JOY" at "Inspirasyon" para naman may I look forward ako.. =(

Paseo de Sta. Rosa

Post Christmas Dinner with Family

Technically, hindi kami nagkaroon ng formal christmas dinner... Medjo madaming events nitong huling tatlong araw, Christmas Party sa office, Ate Jaja's Birthday, Baby Carl's Baptismal.. At sa lahat ng yon, kumpleto ang angkan namin.. mula sa lolo at lola ko, hanggang sa apo sa tuhod ng mga pinsan ko.. So I asked my mom kung pwede kami lumuwas.. Feel ko kasing lumabas, kasama sila. I missed those friday nights, when we (pa, ma, wawen and me ) used to hang around sa SBC, Total.

I wanted to go to malate like we did 2 years ago... Sa may Pier One dapat kami, then daan sa Pyro Olympics... But then, medyo mahal ang gas kung luluwas ka lang just for Dinner. So, we decided to check out Paseo de Sta. Rosa.

Ang Paseo. Malapit lang sa school ni kapatid. Fave hang out ng mga taga La Salle Canlubang. Usually, madadaanan mo papuntang Tagaytay. Daming bars and resto. May shopping area and recreation. Great for night life and widely appreciated by others during lunch time.

Hindi ko pa siya totally naiikot. So ang nagsuggest ng lugar ay si kapatid. Poquito Mas. Italian Resto ata or something... di halata...di ko feel ang pasta at pizza for dinner e.. hehehe.. (medyo nakaka rumi lang isipin ung name.., kaya wag mo ng isipin at kulayan ang green =P ) Ok ang food. Masarap ang Tuna Belly at Calamares. Sa presyo, sulit naman..Typical na bayad sa mga ganung lugar.

At shempre, pag kasama si Ate.. si ate ang sagot. =(
Sobrang bigat na sa kalooban ko ang gumamit ng pinagbabawal na credit card na yan.
Wala pa kasing sweldo, lagot nanaman ako..
Pero ok lang. At least nakasama ko sila.

Di bale na muna ang para kay wee..
Kahit na feel ko, mahal ko na siya..
Di naman ako nagmamadali...
Next time ko na bibilihin ung gusto kong Shoes sa Nike..

Sabi nga ni te babes.. "ma-swerte ka pa din" hehehe..
Mas masaya, pag may ni lolook forward ka..

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Bored na ako sa bahay...
Gusto ko na ulit pumasok..
Pero ayaw ko pa mag work. hahaha..

Blue Christmas

I feel really bad.
It's suppose to be Christmas - the season of peace, giving and love.
Pero hindi ko nararamdaman yun.

Instead of peace, I feel the bitterness.
I feel confused, lost and sorry.
Worst, I cannot feel love.

Numb.Indifferent.

Just when you thought things could be possible.
Just when you thought you could be happy.
Just when you thought you can find love.

Reality pulls you back!
It slaps you hard in the face, kicks you in the stomach.
And just when you think it couldn't get much worst, it rains like hell on you.

I don't know if what I did was wrong.
To still contunue to forgive and tolerate.
I just don't want HIM to feel alone, pity himself, and be angry with life.
But he breaks my heart over and over again...

I'm torn between walking the same path he took or try to pull him back to the right one. =(

Sometimes out of anger, I feel like giving up..
Leave HIM. Live my life the way I want it to be.
But I can't. He won't crack that easy.

I only want him to realize...
... I could never be happy, whenever I see him destroy his life.
... I could never move on with my own life.
... I could never learn to love someone.

I'm too afraid now.
More than ever.

Just because...

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I don't want to hold any grudge in my heart.
Please help me pray. =(

PRESS RELEASE ( Sunsilk Touch Flicks )

WARNING: Details that are about to be unveiled were created for the purpose of gratification and born out of vivid imagination.

It's really funny how people try so hard to show their best side just to make someone fall for him/her.
Fancy clothes, flowers, great food and cool drinks, then what?
They act so careful and so counted that they cease to capture the main purpose of what they do. - Get to know the person better.

In my opinion, things that are suppose to be "special" should be as "real" as possible...

Background : For some unknown reason, people took my jokes seriously and decide that J and I Should be linked.
Thus, we won a dinner "date" c/o the LTLB ISD AWARDS.
COOL! We won a sash and Dinner Date ( a. k. a. P500 worth GC at Chef 'd Angelo)

But, instead of splitting the GC in half, we decide to use it. Why? --- Why not?

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Venue: Chef 'd Angelo
Time : 20:00 HKT

Out of the crowded stream of tiangge and buyers, there he was...

How can I describe the first time I saw him standing in front of Chef 'd Angelo?
--- A "Dashing Debonair" with a red rose and a box of brownies at hand.

( If I was looking at this in a third party's point of view, it would have been really sweet... Reality Check! this is "WEE" =P )

It felt so weird to be in such position, where there were sudden dead air and awkward moments. Which for me was very absurd since we have known each other for more than 1 year and have been batch mates here at the office. -- (I think it's really the flowers..tsk tsk..hehehe..)

Moments later, food was served and broke all the silence.
We agreed to act "normal" and don't give a sh*t about it.
I think when it comes to food, totoo ang 'GALIT GALIT MUNA'! hehehe.. (Lugi talaga ako! =p)

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It's really not that hard to talk to HIM.
We've got some things in common.
Little bits of information that a 'small talk' can't cover.
I've got some crazy childhood memories.
He's got a bunch of chismis from the office.
I've got anxieties in life, he has RAPID MEMORY LOSS syndrome.
Weird topics , Good conversation.

Gradually, I find his "un-gentleman" actions cool and entertaining.
And despite of the flower and the brownies, he still finds a way to in/directly ask silly questions.

In all fairness to him, I wasn't as "dalagang pilipina" as I should have been. Just plain "WEE".

Although, he didn't technically insist on taking me back to the office or dropping me by somewhere. =P
We greatly appreciate the effort to drive all the way to SM to fetch my housemates, in spite of his lack of sleep.

Truly, there's more to this person than cargosmart and being a heartthrob.
Status : Initial QAT completed, please see details for minor comments.

All in all, specifications were met.
But I still seem to find some minor error that needs to be fixed. =p
If you ask me, he's not ready for cutover... yet.
Needs more testing... enjoy life po, or "death" ;)

Thank You, for creating another ambiguous and vague entry in my dictionary. ;)

P.S. I think it is much fun to explain the difference of a gown from a dress than to act pretty in it.
Thank for being a sport! =p

This post was sent to all parties concerned and pre approved accordingly.

SABIHIN MO

Thanks Lui.. Na download ko na po.. :D
hehehe.. convert convert.. ska and reggae muna..

Ikuwento mo sa 'kin kung ano ang sabi niya
Gusto kong maniwala, ako ba ang gusto niya
Ikuwento mo sa 'kin kung ano ang tingin niya
Sa galaw ko at ayos ko, sino ba ang gusto niya

REFRAIN
Araw-araw, ako'y nananaghoy
Walang lakas ng loob na lumapit sa kanya
Mabuti pa, ikaw na ang magsabi
At ikuwento mo na lang kung ano ang nangyari

CHORUS
Mahal ba niya ako, ako ba'ng talaga (sabihin mo)
Ano ba'ng tingin niya sa 'ki'y lusko at porma
Please lang, pakipaliwanag ang bawat eksena
Mahal ko na ata, gusto ko na maging maligaya

Ikuwento mo sa 'kin kung ano ang sabi niya
Gusto kong marinig ang iyong mga balita
Itanong mo sa kanya kung may pag-asa pa
Pag-ibig na wagas na alay sa kanya

Maging masaya
Sa piling niya
Hoh woh woh [3x]
Sabihin mo, woh

Sunday Trip

Bakit kung kelan ka walang CUTOVER,
saka naman lumalabas lahat ng isusupport mo =((

Nasira ang plano ko..
Note to self: wag masyado karirin ang trabaho..
baka mawalan ako ng SOcial LiFE..
... or (worst.. ) LIFE.. tsk tsk tsk.

One WeeK Review

In the Span of 1 week..

I spent all of the SM GC for my inaanak, baby sis and dad. ( borrow ng orange shoes =) )
I have "dressed up" for a foreign visitor here at the office ( again! )
I have gained the all time lowest Bowling score of 48pins. ( talo pa ko ng first timers :( )
I have tasted the food at Gloria Maris. ( Ingat sa CLAMS!! )
I have stayed all up to 12mn on a Monday Night with IM for a Team Building.
I have Jammed with the 'Coolest' Band in OPI. ( ASTIG! \\m// )
I got to bond with new sets of rockers in OPI. (IDOL! salamat sa libre, habang buhay ko ttanawin ito! )
I got 8 stickers from the Free Coffee sponsored by the Musical Director. (Thanks, J!)
I had lunch with my UP friends in OPI at Mr. Choi's.
I found the CD for my baby and the latest W.I.T.C.H. Ish..
I received the 1001 song book I wanted. ( Thanks Estee! )
I received the bed sheet (Mama Jode! GREEN ) =)
I played 'sack dance' and Lost.. ( Bitter ako! Frog Prince Di mo talaga ko kaya buhatin! )
I was nominated for LTLB, and won.. =P ( Fans, thanks..we're just friends =p )
I sang in front of ISD with Mama Jode. ( Pag Kabado.. wala sa tono hahaha.. )
I won P200 GC from StarBucks. ( RUMI!! SALAMAT! )
I finally had my PLANNER! (COOL!)
I finished the proposal for LVAP. (FINALLY !)
I watched the video coverage of the song performance =S.
I had a chat with the 'ORIG' heatthrob of ISD.. =)
I went on a joy ride to Taal, Batangas. ( Sweet lover, u have a good sense of direction! d ba?! K, and Jud! hahaha.. - and Calai =P)
I witnessed the union of two hearts ( Congrats! and Best Wishes!)
and I completed my gift list ( list pa lang! wala pa gifts )

Tomorrow, I plan to visit my Ilang-Ilang Dormates...
I'm really digging this season.. =)
Sobrang hectic..
Ayaw ko ng pumasok.. hahaha..

Pictures and further details to follow..
that is kung di ako tamarin or busy.. =)

Only You

ThuRsdaY - DeC 8

On My 22nd Birthday...

1 Long Distance Call from Hawaii
1 Red ribbon Cake with a Happy Birthday greeting from PAPA,MAMA and ERWIN
1 Large Gj Coffee
1 Wedding Invitation c/o Kaarlo and Rona
1 Cork Board
3 Back Issues Of W.I.T.C.H.
12 Red Roses (from the Guy Above)
1 cute Choco cake
1 Birthday Card
1 Rice cooker
1 Round of Picture with JT.
1 cool costume party

A million text, email and friendster greetings.

I'm really touched.

Thank You!
... To my Parents ... for EVERYTHING
... To my sister ... for the Cueshe concert.
... To my Rumi ... I know it's you.. hehehe
... To my Housemates ... for accomodating my stories and rumble..
... To OOCL/UP pips ... for the "GIFT"
... To my Teammates ... for the "SUPPORT"
... To my Blockmates ... for the ever "block bonding"
... To my College Friends , Ilang Ilang Ladies, CS Pips .... for remembering.
... To my HS and Elem friends ... for recalling
... To the Guy above ... who inspired me...

... To all who remembered and made the day, extra special and proved that not all the great things in life came in boxes...

I am really thankful.
I'm happy and I'll always be grateful.

AnoTher YeAr - aNother TeAr

I'm really fond of birthdays....
...but never my own...

When I was young, I have longed for something special..
Cakes, balloons and Party hats were the best things in life...

20Years later...
Seems like I'm looking for far more complicated things than flowers and choco...
Great Things In Life never came in Boxes wrapped in tinsel and ribbons..

Why do I feel so down.. when I'm suppose to be happy?
Maybe because, when you put it all together..
There have been to much sadness in the past that I'm really afraid to look into the future..

The Jolly Wee.. was demented.

Let's pray things would turn out to be fine..

CHAD

I have known this guy for more than a year now.
He was your ordinary "guy next cube" type of guy.
Typically known as makulit, bolero and a workaholic.

It's not me who was close to him but my 'rumi'
Sure they talk alot, or more like MSN a lot.

But as I became close with 'rumi', I got to know this guy.
We hang around and joke a lot.
We had our long drives down the traffic jammed Ayala Avenue..
The "longest" silent 2minutes of my life.
And the free Ice Creams at Blue Wave.

He's really a sweet, caring, funny, down-to-earth, "thoughtful" and generous type of guy.
I could say that He's any girls - dream guy.
On the Looks department, He's not that bad ... =)


But what separates him from all the guys I've known?
He was the KUYA that I never had.

While I spent most of the time sharing my "undefined" problems online.
He was also there when I needed to spill my guts out.
He was there to listen when I couldn't contact any of my friends.
He knew where I stand and my point of view.

Of course, I would never really know if he's making fun of me... =p

I would always be thankful for all the freebies he's given me.
The chicken skins, rides, ice creams, coffee, tour to Batagas for the team, Tagaytay..

STILL more than anything, I would always be GRATEFUL for all the support he's given me.


While I do hate him for not texting me even if he know that I changed my phone...
And I do hate him for not telling me the news...

Do I have a choice? =p
Do I have a say on the matter? =P

I know 'ALBERT' will not be here on my birthday..
I wouldn't even know if he'll be able to read this..
He'll be off to some place with lots of wave, waters and babes.
I wish him - a great adventure and the best in life.

I hope.. He won't forget to drop by.
And forget creampuff and cubie...

Keep in touch Bro!
I still owe you 1 Jollibee meal.
Till then..
ALOHA!

Coffee didn't mean anything.. until you said goodbye =(

3 days of darkness

It's pathetic when you feel so high about something and yet you feel harassed by the same thought.

Last week, after the technically long weekend, I feel into a deep abyss.
I went into a different high and felt like I was in a roller coaster ride.

I have so much ideas, thoughts and even "whatever" kind of stories that are dying to be spilled.

But my creative juices have been squeezed out of me prematurely.
My whole being was forced to be devoted to a certain task that did overwhelm me.

I was not sure whether I was ready for this.
And I truely believe that this has taken too much from me than what I could offer or give.

This time I felt as if I was forced to face the wall, head-on.
It was not the first time I was put into such position.
It's just that, this time I really felt so stupid.
But at the same time I have to act as if I know all the answers, just to get out of the situation.

And if that's not enough, somehow I manage to kick in some jokes. As if I wasn't also expected to be in a jolly mode. That's even more pathetic.

To top it all!
In less than 5 days, another year will mark my sort of existence here on earth.

I have been sick physically.
Tortured Mentally.
Damaged Emotionally.
Spiritually Confused.

Friday Night, I spent an hour sitting on a foldable chair beside the Bus Driver...
Thinking.Partly, praying.

That, in one way or another, I could find the peace and happiness at the end or this tunnel.

Who knows, I might bumpin into the "ANGEL" that I have been praying... :)

YM 101 (Issue #0001)

temptresa: ikaw, myfafa ka na ba?
winnie: wala nga e..
winnie: mag 22 na ako sa dec.. wala pa din.. :(
temptresa: ok lang yan
temptresa: kung gusto mo ng mga one night stands, marami akong pde i pakilala sa u. hehehe.
temptresa: joke

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temptresa: mahirap tlga mag hnap ng matinong lalaki these days, pero meron din yan. isipin mo nalang nag soshopping ka sa philcoa
temptresa: madaming murang damit pero di pang matagalan. pero kun mag ttyaga kang mag hanap, my makikita ka rin
temptresa: hehehe
winnie: wow naman
winnie: hehehe

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winnie: sige pag mga 25 na ako.. sa bday ko mismo..
winnie: at pag wala pa din..mag papahanap ako sa iyo ng 1 night lang
winnie: pero shempre dapat good genes ;)
winnie: you'll never know di ba..
winnie: hahaha
winnie: :))
temptresa: haha, oo nmn