Wait Forever

Wait Forever
Gary Valenciano

Standing on the great divide
Feel the sudden need to fly
Underneath the open sky
And the river down below

I could keep on running down
I could keep on cheating death and yet somehow
It all ends up the same
And I don’t want to be the one who’s blamed

[refrain]
Can you see that I don’t really have a choice at all
If only for a taste flight
I’d gladly take the fall

[chorus]
So, I say I love you
I don’t wanna wait forever
Just to say, I need you
Doesn’t even have to matter
If it really matter anything to you

I’d gladly take this ride
As long as you are there on the other side
Not making sense at all
Of making sense of it all

So while I can, I’ll take the chance,
I’m diving in
If you need me, I will die
To feel alive again

[chorus]
So, I say I love you
I don’t wanna wait forever
Just to say, I need you
Doesn’t even have to matter
When I say I love you, yeah yeah

I’m falling like
I’ve never done so before
I’m flying against the wind
And here I go

[chorus]
So, I say I love you
I don’t wanna wait forever
Just to say, I need you
I don’t wanna wait forever, no, oh oh (I say I love you)
So, while I can I’ll take the chance
So, I’ll say, I need you
Doesn’t even have to matter
When I say…

I love you so (I love you), I need you
It doesn’t really matter (no, it doesn’t really matter)

If it really matters anything to you
I love you…

Rainy Days

Nagpapasalamat ako at nakita kita.
Till I see you again.
Thanks.

Being Twenty-Something

Being Twenty-Something (This puts it all into words perfectly.) They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.

You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

---- This is a post taken from my blockmate yvette need I say more...

Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they are not alone in their state of confusion!!!

MISSING : CREAMPUFF!!

FEJr!!

Pasaway ka talaga!!! Hindi mo po alam kung gano ka namin ka miss. =p
Shame on you. hmp!!!
We could have waited until 6pm. tsk tsk tsk..

Miss ka na talaga namin.
Hope to see you soon. ;-)

Scope and Limitations

After trying to create a decent entry (4 times )...I decided to blog hop, and ended up reading my "Friendster Horoscrope". The girl with the new blog skin gave me the idea. ;-)


The Bottom Line

All is settling down nicely right now. Enjoy the quiet time and slow things down.

In Detail

If closure on an issue is frustratingly slow in coming, stop waiting for it. Things are settling nicely enough to give you a firm foundation to move forward upon, so feel free to go ahead. Lingering feelings of guilt, regret or anger need to just settle inside you for a while. You can come back and deal with them when you're ready. Keep things quiet and don't put too much pressure on yourself to be happy all the time -- it's just not healthy.

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Wala pa din akong nararamdaman.
Neither Happy Nor Sad.
Just NUMB.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

Binabati ko ang inyong mga BUTIHING AMA ng

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

Wala na akong lakas para mag text sa lahat.. hehehe..
Pumanhin..

CHARLIE

I know it's been hard for you...

to show all the emotions.
to show all the fears.
to show what you're truely worth.

I understand you.
I'm really trying too...
.. more than you think I do.

You have changed a lot.
No.
Not everything that I wanted...

But gradually...
... everything that I prayed for.
Somehow you learned to see...

I'm really grateful.
I feel so blessed.

Whatever happens...
You'll always be my hero.
You'll always be the best.
I'll always be your no#1 Fan.

Thank you for all the things you have done.

UP DAY ( Los Banos Chapter )

After 1 year, we meet again...
Biruin mo nga naman, parang kailan lang nung binisita namin si Ahyeen para kumustahin kanyang panganganak at ang baby boy nya... Ngayon, ang aming inaanak ay 1 taon na!!! Shucks I'm getting older...

Hindi naman required na pumunta kami dun, pero It's been a while since I last visited LB. Saka , nakakamiss din pala ang mga kakulitan ni Carleen, Elaine, Viel at Jeni. Ang dami na din nagbago... Pumayat sila.. tumaba ako.. Or sabi nga ng mga sipsip.."Tama" lang daw =p.

3pm, Rhoda's. It was a typical Birthday party. Balloons, bubbles, and clowns. We sat down for some spaghetti, hotdogs and marshmallows, small talk and some catching up.. Finally, si carleen and Elaine ay may work na. Si Viel malapit na din. Si jen ay HR. And Carlo is silent. hehehe.. I was just not sure if he's really quiet or he just doesn't want to talk.. Nevertheless, I have relayed the info about aaron to him.

We didn't actively participated in the parlor games pero I tried solving the puzzle. The one where you have to put 4 pieces of different forms to form square. I know I could have done it.. but not within 5 secs and with all the people loudly counting and chanting. Oh well, I'll find those and I'll try to master it.. for next year's party.. hahaha.. bitter!!

By 5pm, we decided to leave. But instead of going home, We ended up going to UP for the 530 Mass at St. Therese. On the way there, I was really facinated... Sobrang dami ng nabago!! Ang dating parking space na katabi ng Jollibee ay iba na, ang dami ding chang-ge sa tabi tabi dahil kaka fiesta lang daw, ang daming bagong stores, at may mini stop na sa may gate. Who knows kung ano ng meron sa VEGA?!?

While entering the church, sobrang dami kong naalala. Lalo na at katapat nun ang OLD RURAL. waaahhh... rumi... (Sings : High school life.. oh my high school life..) hehehe... Nakakapanghinayang lang na mukhang hindi napangalagaan ng husto ung dating building ng rural. Medyo madami ng tao sa church, so sa side lang kami dumaan. .. The basketball court was still there! I used to play there!!! Hahahaha... mga panahong nag aangas at nangangarap na manalo kami nung intramurals...

After church, we went to Vega center. Kailangan ko ng pang allowance ni kapatid. Then we ate at LB square?! Tama ba un? hehehe.. Ang dami ng pinag iba ng LB! The place was nice! Madaming bars at resto. Naalala ko ang katipunan area, libis at glorieta... Improving naman pala ang mga kabataan sa LB. Saya sana kung may mga lokal bands din sila dun na natugtog.. ;) Yun nga lang hindi ko na enjoy ang tocino. =(

Before we left, I saw some old high school classmates. Erald and Tom. Nakakatuwa din ang kakulitan nila.. Refreshing to see old friends and their bubbly attitude.

Na miss ko sobra ang LB...
Kahit pala san ka mag punta.. o mapadpad..
Sobrang sayang balikan ang mga lugar na nakasanayan mo na..
Isang chapter nanaman ng buhay ko na kahit kailan ay babalik balikan ko... ;)

Advance Happy Birthday Baby JEN.
Hope to see you guys sooner than TREZ's next birthday!!

McQueen

Sa kadhilanang ang "baka" ay nasa akin na pansamantalang naninirahan, at si MACEY ay nasira. Napilitan na naman akong panagutan ang pinangako ko sa kapatid ko.. Isang bagong Gitara..

Grabeh! ang dami ng instrumento dito, hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin...

tsk tsk tsk..

One at a time ... one at a time...

Drums naman kaya??

Ang gastos ko!!! :((

Angels uNBound

(061506) The Day we celebrate Our Independence day!

Since wala pa daw pa-cake pag 2yrs end of days, ( dahil 3yrs daw traditionally ) we decided to buy something "special" for the meeting. Isang bilao ng pancit ng taga-malabon at isang order ng puto. Opo tama po! Kahit 3 kaming mag cecelebrate at mag sha share, we didn't eat out dahil hindi rin naman kami makahirit ng Lunch Out from above..hehehe... (ang ka kuriputan ba talaga ay namamana?? harharhar..)

Ganun pa man, napakain naman namin ang lahat ng IM... Salamat sa 2 taong masayang alaala! =)

Before there were eagles who roam around these turf...
...wings were bound for so long before they were set free .

Now , it's the angels' turn to choose..
... to hold on or to stretch those wings
... and see what's in store for them in the real world.

IDOL ko si LEO

Better Late than never tol!! ~ceej

http://www.upd.edu.ph/~updinfo/archives/AprJun2004/articles/ALUMNI-MICS.htm

Musta na? How's life in Cebu? or should I say in Cavite?
Nevertheless, miss ya na PROF! heheheh..
Moving on with the violin lessons.. paturo ko when I see you!

Dong, bakal ta sana ka sin shorts pants... kaso big time ka na pala..heheh joke!

Dawal IM Adventure

Date: 10June2006
Departure Time: 430Am
Location : McDonald's Quezon Avenue

As part of the continuing adventures (or Misadventures) of this infamous IM (Iwan Muna) team, we set off to take yet another challenge that will test the strength of the team bond. To travel the length of the North Express way and make it through the country side up to the out skirts of Zambales.

Everything went according to what was planned. Up until UDY broke down somewhere in the Pampanga. We were forced to stay in the nearest store - Tindahan ni Aling Nena.(Aileen)


Ang panahon ay maaliwalas, subalit hindi ka pa pwedeng umusad. Anong gagawin mo sa tapat ng tindahan? Dito napilitan kaming maging "creative". Umisip ng mga paraan para aliwin ang sarili. Pag patak ng alas siyete ng umaga, ganado pa ang lahat na mag TRUMPS. Picture!! picture!! Umabot ng alas nuwebe, unti unti ng nawalan ng gana. Dito nagsimula ang pag upo upo at mag "pinoy henyo". Maraming "deep" at "intellectual" na bagay kaming napag isipan. Sinong mag aakala na maiisip mo ang "Plate number AAA-####", "Tel number sa karatula - 92#-####", "Army of Chicken" at "Argentina" habang nakaupo sa tapat ng tindahan. hahahah!!

Hindi naman nag laon at lumabas na ang halimaw sa bawat isa sa mga naiinip at naiinitang mga dilag. Sinubukan nilang kainin lahat ng baong chicha, kasabay ng pamatid uhaw na soft drinks ni "aling nena". Sinamahan pa ni "Manong Dirty" ang batikang dirty ice cream vendor na napilitang mag park sa harap ng tindahan, sa pagitan ng mga sasakyan ng mga sabungero. Shempre, hindi papalagpasin ang pagkakataong tignan ang itsura ng patupada sa tagiliran ng tindahan na unti unti ng napupuno ng mga parokyano at kristo ng tupada Lubao.

Ilang oras pa ang nakalipas...
Ang tiyang pansamantalang nalunasan ay naghihikaos na muli at naghahanap na ng maisisilid upang pawiin ang hirap na nararanasan.

Sa Yum Charap kami ay natagpuan, sa tapat ng pagawaan. Pinagpala pa rin palang kami ay mabiyayaan ng pansamantalang tagapaghatid aliw - Ang Videoke. Dito nabubuo ang tunay na samahan! Sa kantahan! hehehe... Sa saliw ng mahaharot na tugtugin at malamyos na boses ni mama jode, si bess ay umindak at gumawa ng sariling interpretasyon ng kanta! Alas Dose na! Happy Hour na! Woot woot!!

Pasado alas dos na ng matapos ni Manong ang pagkumpuni ng nasirang parte ng sasakyan. Ang napabalitang clutch na naputol ay hindi ko masigurong clutch nga... Ang alam ko lang ay natutunan ko na kung pano mag tangal ng gulong at breaks.. harharhar...

The jOy ride took almost 3hrs. We were welcomed by some mild rain that eventually subsided. Thus, allowing us to enjoy the magnificent view of the beach just before sunset.

Since we haven't had a decent lunch, the craving for real food became incessant. Instead of resting or refreshing before dinner, we went directly to the mess hall where we were entertained by girls dancing to the tune of “shake body-body dancer”. Much of the dance steps reminded me of Maricel Soriano and Roderick Paulate back when I used to watch the noon time shows in ABS-CBN.

Moments later, Dinner was served. It felt good to eat a complete meal. Tahimik muna…

That night we decided to set off and test the waters. The pool was just waiting for us and the beach front at night is a true delight. Unfortunately, most of us were not as good a swimmer as “crazy frog”, so we dominated the pool! (The Kiddy pool, to be precise. Harharhar!) The event was highlighted by the widely known water sport – “TAYAAN” where in ann-tukin tried to include a helpless child by shamelessly tagging the kid that nearly end up drowning. Also, some side show by our resident driver that either “partially” exposed his true identity or just plainly illustrated a new fashion, by wearing tight leggings to the pool. Good luck girls! hahaha...

The night was still young and so are we! To put us all in the Beach mood, we requested the Manongs to set up a bonfire for us. Marsh mallows on sticks, Chicken chips, fried shrimps and garden salad were on the menu! Cool! Bon fire! Bon Fire! Lucky for us there were no nice reggae songs, we could have danced the “rain dance” steps and chanted some spell around the bon fire. hehehehe… Then again, we couldn’t help but focus on the food. MONZTER!

The next day, we went to an island called PUTIPOT. If you asked, why it was named so? I really don’t know, maybe because the sand was white (PUTI). heheheh... To get there, we have to ride a boat. The trip was short; it’ll only take 5-10 minutes to get to the other side. Another 15-30 minutes to trek the whole island.

Some highlights included the quest to make a sand castle, the test to roll over the beach line while trying to find the “best” shells and rock (?!), the FHM poses, the am snack - banana con yelo without the ice, and the memorable stop in the middle of the sea. The boat suddenly decided to stop because it ran out of gas. (Sinong may balat sa pwet!?!?!)

Eventually, we were able to arrive safe on the other side of the sea.

The Day ended with more pictures and more food. Lunch was served. And before we knew it, it was already time for the PM snack. Kakatorture din pala ang kumain. hehehe... We designated the seats for each cars and said our goodbyes. This is one heck of an adventure, the IM team surely will not forget.

Old Friends.. New Bond..

Wish we could have more of these kind of team buildings. Those that doesn't remind you of work and pressure but refreshes the body, mind and soul...

We could have utilized the bonfire to put the "frog prince" in hot seat, but we didn't. Instead, we all sat in front of the fire, looked at the stars and the beach silently. This was his "day". We need to learn how to..eat like him. Then again, there still more time for all of us to finish that OOF4, right? We will miss you Master. =)

Special thanks to:
Geronal, Alcalca, and Alzonan for the pics...
Ongsipe for the Photoshop lessons...
YuBe for driving us to Zambales..
The rest of IM team for the wonderful time.

DAWAL '06 SOUNDTRACK will be posted once the DJ completes the list

More Pictures HERE

It's been almost a year since Her Majesty left us. I don't recall writing an article related to that certain team building. Perhaps, I was too busy preparing for other stuff last year... Or I must have had a very hard time posting the "emotional" entry about her and another colleague. It's funny how you become close to people just before they decide to leave you behind...

Lazy Sunday Afternoon

Yesterday, I had some QT with myself. It's been a while since I've done this. And what a great feeling!

To be away from the busy streets of Manila, from the thoughts of HK, from the recent events in the office, from all the pressures in life...

Just me, the book that I've longed to finish (the Zahir), the beautiful site and a cool breeze of the sea side air.

I wish things were this simple and situations weren't as complicated.

Every now and then it's fun to visit the province side and enjoy the comforts that they offer.

Happy Independence Day

Happy Independence Day!
Mabuhay ang Malayang Pilipino!

Mabuhay ang mga Lumaya na sa matgal na pagkakatali.

Rumi! Happy Independence Day!!

Happy Thoughts - SM Mall of Asia

Hindi naman masyadong big event or sobrang special ng place...
... for me, it's the people you are with that makes it more special!

Hindi ko pa nasusubukang ikutin ang Mall of Asia...
Kulang ang 6-10pm para subuking puntahan at ikutin ang lugar.

Marami kaming nagtungo, halos lahat ka batch ko. Almost the same set of people who joined us sa Baywalk May2005.

Yun nga lang wala na dito si Majesty at si Chad. May mga wala din dahil busi busihan sa work, may sakit at hindi libre sa araw na ito...( tulad ni an-tukin at ppp ). Ganun pa man, andito si bel, si bets , si she , si kaye at dj. Yung iba nakasama ko na sa baguio trip nung pebrero.


Tribute sa mga text jokes :
YELO ...


YELO.. YEL- O - V - E

hahaha... corny..

Malaki ang lugar at hindi ko kayang okupahin ng pagbagsak ko sa yelo ang ikaapat na bahagi ng rink. Namiss ko tuloy si panget at ang kanyang weird adventures nung college para lang sakanyang KOMII term paper.

Hindi pa din ako marunong tumakbo o mag slide pabaliktad. Marunong akong tumayo, counted na ba yun?? Natatakot kasi akong bumagsak, magasgasan ang siko at malaslasan ng pulso sa pamamagitan ng ice skates.. Wierd?! OO nga! Malaslasan ng pulso. =P

Sa loob ng isang oras, nagawa nila rumi at bagong rumi (dudoy) na maikot ang buong rink. I'm so proud of you... O di ba? At least nagawa ninyong subukan kahit minsan. Sa susunod ulit. sasabayan na natin ang magandang dilag na paikot ikot sa gitna habang nakikinig sa malamyos na tugtugin ng kanyang iPod. If only in (my dreams)...makapag suot din ako ng ganyan at umikot sa gitna for 1min straight. hahaha... Sabi nga ni bel, kahit man lang sa damit makuha ang project! hahahaha.. Matupad na sana ang dream ni snowwizard namagka yelo sa labas ng bahay.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa mga taong nandun at busog na kayo bago humirit si raymond ng frosti.. hehehe... Nawa ay maalala nyo ang araw na iyon at ang taong hamak na tulad ko.. (etchos! drama) hehehe..
Ok lang ma associate sa Frosti... pakilinaw lang na F at hi di po P.

Note: dun sa chismosong nangakong hindi na magbabasa ng blog ko... wag ka na mag side comment.. makakaganti din ako sa iyo.. Bokalist hahahah..

Why we are losing motivation on the jobs

Isa sa mga entries na dapat ilalagay ko on my "freedom day". Something to reflect on:

Taken from MRDJ's Blog

A survey conducted by Sirota Survey Intelligence (Purchase, New York) found the great majority of employees are quite enthusiastic when they start a new job. But in about 85% of companies (52 primarily Fortune 1000 companies with total 1.2 million employees), employees morale sharply declines after their first 6 months and continues to deteriorate for years afterward, and ( to my surprise) the numbers are the same no matter the company size.

A recent HBS article did a superb job of analyzing above data. According to authors, following management practices will diminishes or even destroys employee's enthusiasm.

Many companies treat employees as disposable;

Employees generally receive inadequate recognition and reward;

Management inadvertently makes it difficult for employees to do their jobs. Excessive levels of required approvals, endless paperwork, insufficient training, failure to communicate, infrequent delegation of authority, and a lack of a credible vision contribute to employees' frustration.

I really don't want to post this here pero baka may mga people lang na nakakaka relate...Halos lahat naman tayo na pe pressure at nababano sa work. At isa sa mga pinayo sa akin ng kakilala ko when I ask kung kelan mo malalaman na right time na..

"di naman masasabi na "right time" na eh.. magdedecide lang talaga. siguro pag palagi ka ng stressed out, saka ka na hehehe..malalaman mo naman pag ayaw mo na talaga or kung pagod lang"

Hindi pa naman ako aalis.. as of now..Siguro, nirerevisit ko lang talaga ang purpose at yung reason ko why I'm doing what I do. Saka ayaw ko ding mang iwan.. Alam ko ang pakiramdam ng naiiwan.. =(

sabi nga ni Chad: tanggap tanggap nalang yan tlga

Hahaha... I had an experiment yesterday.. Ang kalukungkutan pala talaga ay nakakahawa...Smile =)

LEANNE, congrats...

Short Course in Human Relation for LEADERS

6 most important words: “I Admit I Made a Mistake”
5 most important words:“You did a Good Job”
4 most important words: “What is Your Opinion”
3 most important words:“If You Please”
2 most important words: “Thank You”
1 most important word: “WE”
1 least important word: “I”

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Just thinking right now..
How do you draw the thin almost invisible line?
What does it take to be a good leader?

iReF

Instead of buying myself the iPod Video that I have been drooling for since GEORGE died, I got myself something ..bigger.

A new reFRIGerator for our appartment.

I was on Leave yesterday just to wait for this baby to come.
Hehehe...

Hindi pa din ako over sa idea na may ref na ako.... hahahah..
I could imagine myself buying a new cellphone, a palm top, a hard disk or an ipod. pero ang bumili ng ref?!? What the.. hehehe..

Parang na shock pa din ako...
Hindi naman siya yung tipo ng gadget na pwede mo i explore and ipagmayabang sa lahat.. hahaha.. Imagine me carrying that thing around the office..hahaha..
Sabi nga ni mama jode, maganda yan...At least hindi yan madudukot o ma snatch sa iyo ng basta basta.. hmmm.. good luck sa snatcher na yun ha..

Medjo malaking milestone to sa akin ngayon dahil dumating siya nung "FREEDOM DAY" ko at nabili ko siya as a reminder of my DB. hahaha...What a gift!?!

Sabagay, may T.V. na ako, DVD player, my favorite Movie(s) collection at rice cooker(?).. hehehe.. lazy boy nalang.. kumpleto ko na ang "Couch Potato" set ko. hahaha..

Nuninuninu...wala lang...iniisip ko kung anong itatawag ko sa kanya.. since lahat ng gadget ko ay may name..
Ikaw? what do you think?